it's been a little while.

I am feeling kinda crappy... so I'm up at 4 a.m., been up since 3. I'm gonna try to sleep in just a minute actually. The thing is I'm kind of glad I woke up. I was able to hear from a friend who's been in Jordan since this weekend, but has now made it back safely to Baghdad...hmm that's a bit weird, but yeah. I was kind of freaked out yesterday from the news breakins about the explosions in Jordan...especially since there was no way to talk to this friend to find out if he was okay. I felt sick the first time they broke in. This person has been such a big part of my life and I guess it just sort of hit me how dangerous where he is at really is. Throughout this whole thing I have never been scared or worried for my friend, but I was yesterday. On another note, I like water. It's quite nice and inexpensive... well unless you buy a bottle of it somewhere then they just rape you over it. It's like hello?..how pure can your water really be?? I don't think it's 3 dollars pure, but if it's hot enough you'll pay it....sometimes even if it's not that hot. I now pretty much have a week to write two ten-fifteen page papers. YES!! hah. I wonder why I do this to myself time and time again? I think I really have made myself believe that I do my best work when I feel pressure... that it would kill me or something if I started an assignment early. I've done my work this way all through school, with the minor exception of a few papers in high school where they made us have to turn it in step by step. Hey, maybe that's why I'm still in school. Or maybe I have an extreme phobia of growing up. I think the latter is a quite real possibility. Maybe I'm just scared of what the future holds....